I've always believed in scripts.  Some people tell me, everything is not scripted. For example, sometimes destiny really goofs up with her timing. Otherwise, wherever did this concept of  'wrong timing' come from? I have seen fate do very uninteresting, out of context things to people. Why other people, even me. Like right now, she is asking for a sadness to arrive. I understand this is her way of bringing a little drama into my life's script, every now and then. But, after all, she is destiny, I can never tell, if this is just a little drama or a turning point.

The confusion continues regarding the point, if really everything is scripted. While writing this post, I figure out, if there are things out of context that are happening, then may be, 'out of context' is an adjective to script. I am just to live it.

Every time she has asked me to, every time i have lived it. I remember, I had asked for a little time, to realize certain things, a few years back. She gave me a platter, of choices, timings and amendments. This time i did not particularly ask for time, but I know she knwos me, and she possibly was okay with the fact that, I was taking my time. With no objectiions from her, I thought she was okay with this treaty between us.

But now again, she comes, to see how the stagger in the knees sound, to taste my sweat running down my heart and mind. I have no choices to  make. No amendments to try out.  And time, is of course not apparently, on my side.

An incomplete, haphazard one then, for a new feather on my hat, is it? Let's collect it too.

But, just in case you are reconsidering my case mademoiselle , let's make this one large. I have a lot more to invest.  Possessions that have waited through years, dates, tears, laughter, stealth, declarations, denials, words and men...to get invested properly.

 Let me..

will you, honey?

 

Green lights have dressed up the Calcutta roads, Robindroshongeet, patriotic songs and Shlok recitals rejuvenate the skeptical minds of the habitations. Men, boys and women with mostly dirty, faded clothes are running, shouting, screaming, celebrating on the roads, their faces and hearts covered with greenery. Mamata Banerjee and her posters seem to have taken the entire Bengal for a green ride.

 

At certain dark, shady areas of the same Calcutta of mine lay the much known red flags. It's windy, but strangely their bodies don't wind with these new winds. Its all lit up everywhere, but these reds are shying away. These reds, which were the royals, these reds, to whom belonged all the light, all the shadow, all which was there to belong.

 

 

The green win has surprised me for sure. But what surprises me even more, is the complete wash out. Not one seat, here or there. Bamfront is missing! Not only in action, but also in fraction. But it is good that the divisions of who rules and who watches speechlessly are well determined. It spares people a lot of cheapness. I was listening to the oath takings that day, and the CPM leaders vowing as oppositions, broke my heart. Probably, as far as I remember brought a tear to my eye too. Defeat SO does not look good on some people, and victory? Well that too is so not everybody's thing. But I guess we all have to come to know about the either sides, to know better, which of the sides is ours.

 

The newspapers are spilling refreshment everywhere, with every decision that the new CM is making. I am happy for us, the people. I am happy forCPM too. And somehow, I am happy for Mamata too. It's been a very long time she wanted it. The victory has changed the way she looks. She has not changed the wardrobe and accessories, mind you. But something about her seems to have changed.

 

I am shaken by my possibility to feel both, acceptance and ignorance, about the same incident. CPM feels like family, the ministers feel like family members I have shared my land with for generations, and no one likes their elders to lose. May be, this change will have more changes to offer.

 

Like Dada does not look good if he starts behaving like Dhoni in the field, like Srk flop films don't suit SRK, CPM too, does not look good, at the opposition.

 

The Geeta says, everything that is happening, has it's own reason to offer. I therefore, am too humble a part of the universe to question such huge changes. But my questioning, my bothering, can vary the way the entire universe can work. This, too, the Geeta vouches for.

Yesterday:

 

Head n body shape: round.

Hair: minimal around the ear n grey in colour.

Height: 5ft 4 inches at the most.

Dress code: cotton safari shirt, ash in colour, and cotton trousers ash in colour too.

Eyes: small, twinkling and, smaller when he laughs.

Profession: junior artist in the regional Bengali film industry.

Age: 78

 

Flawless acting. But he was facing difficulties in reaching the same perfection while he dubbed his words. He could''nt apparently seem to follow the technicalities of the method. First he sat, then he stood, then he said, may be he should eat something, so he had his lunch, and then started again. It was difficult. Very difficult. Then he said he shall sit aside, and watch, while another artists dubs. He asked for a bottle of sprite, I got it for him. He drank half a glass and started burping, inside the ac studio!

Me, & a couple of fellow assistants, along with the director, laughed our heart out. Sometimes he'd start talking about all the big names he had worked with, in his hey days, and he'd keep talking about big directors, big actors, internationally award winning films in which he has had his unacknowledged contribution. We all, at certain point of time, got bored, and looked away, sometimes changed the topic. But he kept talking.

After 3 hours, ignored enough, and kept away from the recording room so that bigger stars and younger, faster people could come in and grant us their precious time, he was let in.

This time, a certain, irritation, on our faces, watching him skeptically through the glass, and a fatigue in his eyes. Being the "dub captain", and a little guilty of had helplessly insulted him may be, I asked him to sit down and make himself comfortable if he wanted to. He refused.

And he asked for the pilot.

In the next 15 minutes, his dubbing was over. Sweet man came out of the recording room, all smiling. The smile that a lil while back , was promising to fade away, was back, right there.

My director was happy, I was satisfied, that the day's work was over. But he kept talking. It felt like he was some walking talking Bengali Film Biography. The only words I remember from that unending epic was " Ajkal toh amakae keu daakena, chenei na amake" / " No one calls me these days, they don't even no me"

 

Today:

 

Head and body: longish, sharp, tall, fresh.

Hair: fluffy, hero cut( J )

Height: 5 ft 10 or more.

Dress code: white t-shirt, blue denims, aviator glairs.

Eyes: not noticeable.

Profession: new struggling actor in the regional Bengali film industry

 

He came in with this scribble of over-confidence all over him. When he met me, the handshake he offered was, like he was the Casanova, and I was going go get bowled over in a few seconds. He had told a fellow assistant director he shall finish in an hour.

I was happy, I had a good chance of finishing work off earlier than expected, and that would mean, meeting up with friends, adda, and so much of fun.

He started, and the bell rang, it was the death rung of the entire working team. A slouch that he could nt do away with, a pronunciation problem , that did not look like much of  a problem to him, a dialogue delivery , that had nothing to do with the even the character's grandfather. Was he worthless, or was he worthless? After a certain point of time, I , who never shouts, never misbehaves with co workers, (not because I cannot, but because I am new, I cannot afford to), started shouting, and losing patience. The man, kept doing to and fro between the recording room and the system room, we kept teaching him the novel most of ways to say things. But, all in vain.  This happened thrice in the day, and we had wasted more than half the day recording nothing from his bit.

At the end of the day, the director had to take the call, and now, after a day full of cribbing behind him, he is not dubbing for himself. Some new guy is coming day after tomorrow to do his job. Oh I forgot, while some other junior artists dubbed, he dozed of on the sofa, twice. And the ending note: " jawkhon uni pilot er acting ta dekhe boledichhen, amio toh tai korchi, amar ta kyano finalize kawra jachhena tahole?" /

" when he's repeating the same style as that of the pilot, why cant I repeat mine? I am doing the same thing right?" I shut the door of the car, and left.

 

Irony. God's dense , sense of humor, or his intention to put variety in to my mundane work life.. call it what you may…

 

I've never seen contradiction so well defined. Kudos gawdie!